Since last I wrote I have mostly been being awake but, looking on the bright side, I have at least been awake at all the usual and required times as well as for THE WHOLE REST OF THE TIME when all the sensible people were fast asleep…..
My last post was one of those bleak affairs that I’m wont to turn out every once in a while. For a while I felt bad about writing it but I’ve had one of my little thinks and decided that if a gloomy post every once in a while is the worst thing my brain can come up with then I’m probably doing fairly well in the main scheme of things. Of course that’s more looking on the bright side. What can I say? Welcome back to WeeGee Land, I guess….
Safe to say my blog has been a little quiet of late. For the most part it has been the worst of times. And it has been the worst of times. And, put simply I couldn’t be arsed to turn my computer on. My broken brain has been misfiring all over the place and I’ve felt like my whole life was under siege. I got to the point of thinking that NOTHING WOULD EVER BE OKAY AGAIN. But it will, in time. I know that because I didn’t spend all the time I spent learning all the things I learned about living with a broken brain to go and forget that when it mattered the most.
When the chips are down time stretches until you think it might never end and you think that’s the problem: time marching on (and on and on and on). The thing is, when the chips are down, the only thing you need is time. Of course it marches on AND THAT’S THE BEAUTY OF IT. The next chapter is just around the corner and I’m starting to remember that I’m going to get to it whether I think I want to or not.
This is yet another toe in the water. There have been a few in recent months but eventually, surely, one of them will be just bold enough. I’ve been living in my own head, hiding from the world and from all the things that are very definitely better in that out. I’m yet to find a better remedy for my hiding than blogging so I happen I might stick with it this time. Or at least try to…..
I thought I’d try and revive an age old tradition and leave you with a song. It’s a whimsical song that doesn’t really mean a whole lot (except of course, those are always the songs that mean the most)
Until next time.
Love you all lots and lots like jelly tots
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I’m glad to see you here today but sorry there is still so much going on behind the scenes. I’ve said it before but I mean it, we’ll be here when you are ready or you can reach out if you need to. ((Hugs))
Thank you for the warm welcome back (again) I truly do appreciate it.
Huge hugs back xxx
There’s a saying here, that I can only guess y’all have there, too – “you can’t have rainbows without rain.” We have to get through the rough times to better appreciate the good times. Wish there was something I could offer for the sleep, but I seem to be struggling with that a bit right now, too. *HUGS*
That is absolutely spot on Mrs Mama – you’d never know you were happy if you didn’t know what it felt like to be sad…..
Sorry you’re not sleeping either. Pretty crappy isn’t it?
Huge hugs xoxoxo