I can’t quite believe the amount of time that’s passed between today and my last post. I didn’t mean for it to turn out this way – I’ve had so much to say. I just didn’t know how to say it. I think we might have arrived at the story of my life.
My head’s pretty jumbled up right now. I’m a little bit AWESOME insofar as that I’m full of good ideas. And what’s wrong with being full of good ideas? I sorta know the downside….. And I’m scared of myself. Of course I am. Awesome is exciting but I just want the steady life.
This isn’t the post I thought I’d write.
I’m better than I’ve ever been. I’m not jumping out of any windows, or hurting myself, or trying to get away.
Truly though? I’m not okay. I’m not coping and life is tough and my brain won’t play.
But I don’t know what I wanted.