I’ve been feeling a bit ‘world shut your mouth’ for the past couple of days which would be a total pain in the arse if only I could bring myself to care. I hate feeling like this but I’m consoling myself with the fact that I only feel like this for a couple of days at a time now which is infinitely better than it being the perpetual state of affairs for months and months at a time. What a bleak way of looking on the bright side.
When I got up this morning I decided it was high time that WeeGee had herself a bit of a hide because when you’re feeling a bit ‘world shut your mouth’ and your brain is full of thoughts and feelings that you can’t figure out a bit of a hide is the only thing for it.
Sometimes you have to stop the world so you can find a way to make sense of your place in it……
As to whether I feel any better at the end of my hide? Who knows. I’m still a little tired of the world, but maybe not as tired as I was to start with. Perhaps that’s just the way it goes, and I simply have to get used to being tired of the world and the people in it every once in a while. It’s a shame because I much prefer it when everything is AWESOME.
I suppose I managed to remember one or two things – like how worrying is pointless, and how I can only ever be the person I am, and how I can’t stop the thoughts but I can choose what to do with them. Spot the lifetime in counselling. I wonder if that’s the problem? Maybe I’m tired of the fact that my tendency to being mental always has to shape the way I live my life.
I know that things are getting under my skin at the moment and that I ought not to let them but it really doesn’t work like that. Maybe I am a bit ‘clucky’ but it’s not the sort of thing your best friend ought to point out to you, all things considered. Maybe I would be a ‘high flier’ at work if I didn’t have the problems I do – but where does knowing that get me? Maybe wearing my heart on my sleeve is going to leave me hurting – but it’s always lived there and I don’t know where else to put it.
Today I think I’d like it if running away was an option. I’d happily board a spaceship and cross my fingers that I ended up landing amongst my kin. I’ve been wondering if there’s such a thing – WeeGee’s kin that is – because it occurs that I’m really lonely even though my life is filled full of people.
Meanwhile in other news there is nothing else to report save that I love you all lots like jelly tots. Oh. And I’ll be back tomorrow being even more AWESOME than before.
11 thoughts on “World. Shut. Your. Mouth.”
I wear my heart on my sleeve because otherwise I would hide it so deeply that even I couldn’t find it. Your decision to withdraw for a small break is a good one, I believe. You always return with new insights, and I can’t wait to hear them! 😎
😀 watch this space xoxoxo
i feel you on this – i cant remember the last time i really felt like posting to my blog as all the days are the same lately! I miss being able to write 😦
Hope you get your mojo back soon sweetie xoxoxo
Hey WeeGee, I know how you feel, it’s been a tough couple weeks for me too. Sending love and support your way xo
Much love and support coming right back at you lovely xoxoxo
Thank you xo
I’m hiding too. Maybe all hiders should join forces and hide together and sit in silence and just watch Masterchef finals this week. I think my brain would enjoy this kind of hiding.
You have this way with words that I wish I had, no one describes this feeling-like-i-dont-belong-on-this-planet quite like you do, which makes me feel less alone in the alien Earth place. So thank you.
Hugs lovely xxx
I’m well up for a masterchef hide. Sounds perfect to me 😀
The fact that what I write makes sense to you makes me feel less alone too. So thank you xoxoxo
I have the tendency to get this ways a lot. (((hugs)))
Hugs back lovely xoxoxo